Guess Who's Back Bitches??

Fatter than ever. I hate me. Time to get legit.

I have a tumblr, i update it alot more then this.
but i'm going to try to update more.

i have a tumblr now.


i weighed 144 this morning. its a little better.
i'm getting there.
i want to be in the 130s by homecoming.

i've been sick all week, which sucks, because i like school.
i can get away with not eating as much there.
but i've been playing the sick card, so i guess it's okay.

my friend texted me last night, she thinks she's preggers, and wants me to go with her to get a test.
i'm scared for her.


i think i'm going to run indoor track this winter, just to get back into shape. i always loose weight when i start running.


well, thats it for now.

this is IT!
i can't stand myself any longer.
i say i'll loose weight, and i'll do better tomorrow.
NO MORE.
FUCK MY STUPID PATHETIC WANNA BE SKINNY, BUT I'LL TRY HARDER TOMORROW ATTITUDE.

THIS CHANGES NOW!!!!!!!!!

i'm pathetic.






I'm fasting tomorrow, all day long.
if i eat, i must do 100 crunches for every calorie consumed.
and i will punish myself further, by SI. Because i want to be hott one day.
i want to loose 10 lbs by homecoming. (oct. 30)
i CAN DO THIS.
I HAVE TOO!!!

Friday night at our football game some drunk bitch was talking about me.

She called all our cheerleaders whores and slut (when she had her baby her sophomore year) and then she singled out 3 girls.
i was one of them.

i don't know what she said but i can only imaginie.
"She sucks at cheerleading, why is she even on the team?"
"Who let the cow on varsity"
"did you see that jump? her legs jiggled like crazy!"



i need to get back on track.
in the last month i lost a total of 7 inches.


i WILL loose more.

Last night was my two year anniversary with my boyfriend.
He got me a beautiful ring, and told me its a promise ring.
He said i know you have plans for your future and don't even want to think about marrige until you're out of college, but i just want you to know that i will wait, and i want you to wait too.


i love him.
i really do.



We went out to eat, and i enjoyed myself, and then felt like a cow the rest of the night.

i came home and tried to tell my mom, and she ignored me and asked me where her sandwich was.

"so M got me a really pretty ring, he said he was running out of things to get me."
.....
"look, it came in a pretty box"
.................

"Wheres my sandwich?"

"in the fridge"

"well go get it, bring me ketchup. if i had known i'd have to wait until AFTER the movie i wouldn't have even got it. you should have called so i could choose."

"i assumed you knew you'd have to wait."

"Don't ever assume, now get my sandwich"

It really hurt my feelings..

but she does have the flu, really bad.
and she has heart problems so it makes it worse.
i hate her being sick.
:/


well, its time to get ready for school... wooo....


GOAL TODAY : LESS THEN 1,000.


i CAN do it.

Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't been on. I broke my laptop charger and I'm having trouble getting it fixed. I just got my iPod on the mail so I can get on a little but not too much. I miss everyone and can't wait to be back