i have a tumblr now.


i weighed 144 this morning. its a little better.
i'm getting there.
i want to be in the 130s by homecoming.

i've been sick all week, which sucks, because i like school.
i can get away with not eating as much there.
but i've been playing the sick card, so i guess it's okay.

my friend texted me last night, she thinks she's preggers, and wants me to go with her to get a test.
i'm scared for her.


i think i'm going to run indoor track this winter, just to get back into shape. i always loose weight when i start running.


well, thats it for now.

this is IT!
i can't stand myself any longer.
i say i'll loose weight, and i'll do better tomorrow.
NO MORE.
FUCK MY STUPID PATHETIC WANNA BE SKINNY, BUT I'LL TRY HARDER TOMORROW ATTITUDE.

THIS CHANGES NOW!!!!!!!!!

i'm pathetic.






I'm fasting tomorrow, all day long.
if i eat, i must do 100 crunches for every calorie consumed.
and i will punish myself further, by SI. Because i want to be hott one day.
i want to loose 10 lbs by homecoming. (oct. 30)
i CAN DO THIS.
I HAVE TOO!!!

Friday night at our football game some drunk bitch was talking about me.

She called all our cheerleaders whores and slut (when she had her baby her sophomore year) and then she singled out 3 girls.
i was one of them.

i don't know what she said but i can only imaginie.
"She sucks at cheerleading, why is she even on the team?"
"Who let the cow on varsity"
"did you see that jump? her legs jiggled like crazy!"



i need to get back on track.
in the last month i lost a total of 7 inches.


i WILL loose more.