Happy Birthday to Me.

*cue the streamers*


i'm fiinally 16.
i woke up to a mini lecture from my mom about how we need to work together to loose weight, how i'm too short to carry excess weight.
How if i said i was hungry and had eaten she's tell me to suck it up, and i HAD to exersice.

i'm glad though, this will be my motivation.
loose weight as quick as possible.


i'm going to be TINY this summer.

I posted last night, and when i clicked publish, my internet crashed.
so i lost it. FML.

basically it said i wanted to go to Wonderland. Or someplace i could escape.
my own little wild paradise. Where i could challenge myself,
and get away from my problems.
a world where i could be..
FOREVER SKINNY

Wouldn't that be great?
a skinny world, everyone a perfect size zero.
that just sounds great.

And when she met her maker, he said "come right in"
"I'll show you around the gym"
"Everyone's beautiful and thin"
"And here there's no sin, and your life can begin"

I love that part of the song.
It's very motivational.


Today was a graduation party for my boyfriend.
Lots of food.
I had a hamburger, and a little bit of cake.
i put the rest on my boyfriends plate.


i'm going to get tiny.
i will be able to swim with my boyfriend, and not worry that
the rest of his family thinks i'm a FATASS.


i'm about to pass out.

so... more later?

I've had about 300 cals today.
but i'm worried about dinner, so i'm going to workout soon.

i have to take the final in my art class, and in my drivers ed class.
luckily i don't have to take my medical terminology final.
I think i got accepted into my schools CNA class.
i'm so excited!
but now i have to take art 5 as an independent study, instead of with my friends.
the classes overlap.

I'm really upset, my boyfriend picks me up after school everyday, and today he wasn't there. luckily my best friend could take me home.
but, i know he had to work, but he never told me the times.
he could have called to let me know that he couldn't get me.

honestly, sometimes i wonder why we are even together, we argue alot more then we used too, and he always wants to fool around, and i don't like too, because i'm too big.

i feel like a fat cow when i'm with him.

plus, theres this guy who i've had a mini crush on since 8th grade.
but he'd never be interested in me. he wants skinny, blonde, easy girls.
Me? i'm fat, brunette, and a "prude"
Today he told me my drawing looked just like the little kid in the picture, and since he's the best artist in the class, it ment alot.
i don't think it's that good.
it's for this thing called memory portraits.
we get a picture of an orphan, and we draw them, and send it back to them.
This year they're from Haiti.

I think i might post the drawing once i'm done..

Today is the National day of fast, for anyone a member of skinnydoll.
i must eat under 400 cals to participate.
I WILL DO IT!!!


my birthday is on monday, and the last day of school is tuesday.
then exams for me on thursday.


Busy busy busy....


i don't think my art teacher likes me.
i really wanted my BEST friend to come sit with me during class, because she was in history.
i asked, and my teacher said NOONE can come in until we're done with our projects.
5 minutes later, a girl came in, then one of my friends came in, then another, and another.

It made me mad, because they could come in, but my BESTIE couldn't?
WTF???


i hate school so much.
I can't wait until summer.

I need to update more.
i haven't been on since my last post.
so, tomorrow i'm having a catch up day, reading everyones posts,
and updating you all.
i'd do it now, but i took Nyquil, and it's hitting me now.

ate way to much.
but, i did a really good ab work out


I LOVE YOU ALL

Hey everyone, sorry i haven't updated, lifes been crazy.
I made the Varsity squad. Which means no more free friday nights once football starts.
i'm really excited about it though.
I'm on the state council for HOSA, so i was busy with that.
lots to do, not enough time.

I'm not sure what my weight is, because i'm on my period, and my stomach is soooo
swollen, it looks gross.


but, i gotta go to school.
i'll get on when i get home, and update more.

i should really be getting ready, but oh well.
i have to go to barnes and noble dressed like Alice from Alice in wonderland.
(that waas our school play)
Then i have a tea at my grandmas church.
i'm going to try and not eat much.
but with my mom and grandma watching me it will be hard to eat nothing.
i ate a bowl of oatmeal with fiber supplement in it.

i'm still nervous about tryouts, but i'm working really hard to make it.
i'll update more later.


<3 you all