I went to my boyfriends last night.
We've been together almost 2 years,
and he saw me shitless for the first time last night.* It took every piece of me to allow him. He told me i was beautiful, i shook my head. He asked me why i hated my body so much. I told him i didn't know. Then i grabbed top and put it on as fast as i could. And i sat in a seat away from him. I felt so disgusting, even though he's seen me in a bathing suit. It was just different.

I got candy for easter, wahoo...

i'm going to allow myself one piece, because it's the bite size ones.
but no more.

I also have to go to my grandma's for lunch.
I'm going to say i feel bad & not eat much.

I'm going to try and work out today.
I'll take it easy, with just weights and crunchs, and light cardio.
with my inhaler by my side of course.


HAPPY EASTER EVERYONEE!!



*Please note: it was more of an i love you moment then physical. and we are both virgins and are keeping it that way for a long time.*