Finally the weekend.
I really want to workout, but i can barely walk up the stairs without getting out of breath. i can't talk without having massive coughing attacks.
i hate sick.
i'm going out to eat with my bf, my friend and her ex before prom (longg story). she's a size 2 right now. i feel so huge next to her. i'm worried about eating. they really don't have many healthy choices. except salad. and thats HUGE! whatever i get, i'm just going to have alot of water and diet soda with it, and chug a water before it comes, that way i'll fill up quick, and then burn cals dancing, and at after prom. they have all kinds of active stuff.
well, the boyfriends on his way over, he's watching movies with me while i'm recouperating.
:D
About Me
- Belle
- I'm the world of ED i am known as Belle, this is to protect myself. I have undiagnosed EDNOS. I've always had food issues. I used to cut up my food in elementary school so people would believe i had eaten more then i had. I started skipping meals in 6th grade and started eating just special K bars for lunch. I want to feel pretty, and have people think i'm pretty. I have been laughed at while running, called fat, asked why i cheer when i'm so fat, etc. I want to show those people the true me, not this fat beastly shell.
Omg. I just kind of got over being sick. It sucks ass sooo much! You can't exercise, breathe or sleep (well not that the computer doesn't keep me from sleeping either lol). And it's okay! your friend might be one of those super freaky naturally skinny girls. I hate them so much! Just hide the label sizes from anyone. And nice prom plan <3 My school is having a fucking BBQ instead of a semi-formal dance. (we are 8th graders). So good thing I hate BBQ.
ReplyDeleteOhh which movie did you watch?!?!?! Hope you had fun! Love ya lots!
She's always been little, but she says she used to be bulimic, and made a huge deal of it. She lies for attention. I really don't like her that much anymore.. ha.. shes a bitch. in 8th grade she told me the track girls and coaches called me fat, and made fun of my running.
ReplyDeleteMy school had the "8th grade dance" it was a mini prom in the cafateria.
we watched crossroads (: he left before it was over though, because he has to work a 10 hr day today.
DAMN!!!! I just typed something and it all dissapeared! meh. Anyways recaping what I said:
ReplyDelete-That girl needs to be slapped
-lies for attention cauz doesn't feel like attention from anywhere else (I do the same thing except I don't lie)
-Her karma is gonna come back and bite her in the ass :)
-your getting skinner so you now run better!
- My skool isn't allowed to have dances anymore (tehhee 8th graders faults)
-Awww I'm glad you had fun!
So thats basically the main jist of what I wrote :) I love youuu
-I hate it when that happens!
ReplyDelete-yea, she does.
-she gets alot of attention.
-i hope it does (:
-i'm working on it. last run i went on i had an asthma attack. haha.
-awh, that sucks.
and thank you (:
ilytoo(: