i am thinking about re - joing MNF next week,
i'm under so much stress this week, because of our play.
i'm already making myself sick under stress, and without food it
will only get worse.
i feel like such a let down, and i'm a failure, but right now this is what's best for me. i CAN'T miss the play, it's my first big production, and i'm the lead.
i can't sabatouge it.
i really want to be part of it. i'm just going to wait till' life calms down a bit.
About Me
- Belle
- I'm the world of ED i am known as Belle, this is to protect myself. I have undiagnosed EDNOS. I've always had food issues. I used to cut up my food in elementary school so people would believe i had eaten more then i had. I started skipping meals in 6th grade and started eating just special K bars for lunch. I want to feel pretty, and have people think i'm pretty. I have been laughed at while running, called fat, asked why i cheer when i'm so fat, etc. I want to show those people the true me, not this fat beastly shell.
I totally understand! It is okay if you come back next week^^ It is final week for me soon so I think I might need to drink a diet shake or something to pep me up for them..it's all good!
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you're the lead in a play!? congratulations, that is spectacular! and you're not a failure.
ReplyDeleteyea! i was shocked to be chosen. It's Alice in Wonderland.
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