Today i've eaten a bowl of cereal.
150 cals.
and a cookie
70 cals.
I'm going to my boyfriends later to watch Avatar. It's his fav.
I prob wont eat there, because most of the time dinners over when i get there.
i'm making him take me to sonic for a diet dr pepper, and ice.
i'll tell him i ate already, and tell my parents i ate there.
i won't leave till' 5 though, so i will try to get out of anymore eating.
i really want to work out, but my cough limits what i can do.
i hate it.
I stretched for 30 min last night for cheerleading.
I really hope i make it, i'm so worried i wont. I have to make varsity since i'll be a junior, but there are so many gymnasts trying out.
I can't tumble, or jump.
i suck.
Well, if i don't make it, i'm running Cross Country to get in shape. I'll just train harder for next year.
once i get my camera working i'll post some pictures.
i want to post prom pictures after prom, but i'm scared to show my face..
About Me
- Belle
- I'm the world of ED i am known as Belle, this is to protect myself. I have undiagnosed EDNOS. I've always had food issues. I used to cut up my food in elementary school so people would believe i had eaten more then i had. I started skipping meals in 6th grade and started eating just special K bars for lunch. I want to feel pretty, and have people think i'm pretty. I have been laughed at while running, called fat, asked why i cheer when i'm so fat, etc. I want to show those people the true me, not this fat beastly shell.
Hey hunni! good job with low cal today!!!! Good idea with the whole BF thing! Shit. I just realized how sick and tired of this whole ana planing thing I am. Maybe I just need more sleep... well anyways smart plan girly! Hope your cough gets better =/ I hope you make it too!!!! Just practice those jumps or tumbles with a friend! I guarantee you that will help! try to find a friend NOT trying out though...she may try to make you worse so she has a better chance of making it.
ReplyDeleteAbout the face thing....if your worried, DON'T do it! Because if your family finds this, they see your face, then your skrewed. But if your not worried about that, it should be fine! Alot of the times I tend to hide my face with my hair in the pics! Well good luck hunni! loce ya lots!
thanks love (:
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